My Confession

I don't like Dungeons & Dragons.

I like the concept, sure. I think it could be fun given the right people to play with and and environment in which people do not take it too seriously. However, I have played it before and while I made my own fun after promising my commitment I did not really go wild for it.

My confession, however, is not that I don't like it. It's that I keep secretly thinking "maybe this time it'll be fun...." You see, I got roped into a new campaign by a friend who wanted to DM. I said "Okay, but I'm going to miss a lot." So on the bright side I only play if I happen to be home (we play online) and don't have anything to do at the time. However, I played on Monday and was bored out of my mind. I was able to use my old character from another campaign (the only one I ever completed) and I got so fed up with everyone "searching for clues" when their characters would technically have no motivation to do so that I made my character break into a tavern and get drunk and arrested. I then bought a complete breastplate armor set. It's +1 apparently, but I'm rubbish at managing the stats and don't like to.

However, during this session I recalled why I keep slyly going along with it even if I'm not that interested any time I've ever played. The answer is because I like to write stories and D&D is essentially collaberative story telling. The problem is that I hate everyone's stories. I find them contrived and streotypical. Logically this means that I'd probably have more fun being a DM and making my own story... but that requires looking all all the monsters I'd use and their stats and knowing everyone else's character's stats to ensure they don't cheat and also being the guy who's stable and always aroudn for a certain night of the week to play. And I just don't care enough. Maybe someday when I'm not in school anymore I can give it a shot and kill everyone off if I realize it's not working out, but until then the possibility will exist as my secret confession.

Unless... maybe I could make it so we'd only play once every two weeks and....

No, no it's best not to think about.